It's about time, mom!

So I just had and ahah moment with my kids. One that I hope I can remember and am thus writing it down before it leaves my brain. I always put Lily and Abigail to bed around 6:30pm and then Kaylie and CArter about an hour later. I always sing to Lily when I put her in the crib, and still give Abigail a bottle in bed (although I'm weening her of that). For Kaylie and Carter, however, I brush their teeth, read them a book of their choice, then a Book of Mormon story from the reader, or from the scriptures themselves. But I realized tonight that they really wanted/deserved to have me sing to them too. So, after their book, I decided I'd sing them some mellow primary songs and hymns. It calmed them down immensely and after about 25 minutes they looked ready for sleep. Neither had naps today, as we have 1pm church, so I know they are tired. I got to the last song and couldn't even sing it because I was crying. The spirit was there and I felt such peace and an assurance that I was doing what I should be doing with my kids. I have been feeling a bit prone to failure lately with my children, as I seem to be yelling more and more while trying to rid myself of that terrible weakness. I don't allow myself nor my children the great peace of the spirit near as often as I should. I need to unwind more and be less tense. Singing has always done that for me. I love the calming influence of sacred music, it fills my sould. I have been rather negligent about sharing my talent and love of singing with my children. After such a successful night with them, I hope to be able to use that gift to instill in them a love for sacred music and an ability to recognize the spirit. Boy, I wish I would have learned this when they were younger!! I hope that I can find the energy to sing to them every night, even if it is just one song. What a difference it made in the way I feel!!!